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Celestial Tranquility  //  What am I? an actress, singer, dancer, mover, thinker, writer, woman, friend, explorer, lover, talker, daughter, student, sister...

That can't be all.

May 15 / 2:58pm

So I ignore everything . Keeps my mind healthy . There just always seemed to be more important things . To do here

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I always am keen to start this blog thing and never seem to manage to keep it up as regularly as I should, well with an essay weighing on my shoulders for finals week I have decided to take a small break and express a few things that are consuming my thoughts right now. You know, as they do.

There is a lot going on in this world, it's overwhelming, and with the heart I have it honestly hurts me that I can't help every single person here...I honestly get overwhelmed that it is out of my realm to assist and make everyone happy. I don't know why, I even find myself laughing because I am being so silly at getting disstraught over something I have absolutely no control over. Of course, this is a slight extreme but true none the less.

So, I started thinking...why am I so bothered by the disasters of everyone else? I am less bothered by my own disasters...then I realized...I am bothered because it makes me sad when people don't live, like live live....like LIVE. Not just potter around but actually live and do what they dream...we're so caught up with the mundane of our lives and our responsibilities...careers...school....what society expects of us....well, so then I thought what do I expect from myself?

Well, I want a career in the performing arts...but I also don't want my career to define who I am, I want to define myself by my own experiences and I want to branch out and have every experience that i've dreamed off. For example, I was UNschooled growing up and now in one year I will be graduating from SFSU with a BA in Theatre Arts: Drama Performance.

I really want to travel...and be healthy...and experience the world...I want to dance...I want to learn Italian and French and travel through Europe...I want to be with my family and those I love...I want to perform as a career ...I want to never stop learning the history of the world...I want to maintain my curiousity and love for education and art...

With all this, I think after I graduate and I recieve my Pilate's Training Certificate I am going to go backpacking through Europe. You can get a Eurail Pass for roughly $700 for 2 monthes and I can go to over 22 different countries. There is nothing that can stop me...I kind of want to learn guitar so I can busk a little while I am there for extra money...that would be fun... Of course I am going to ask around to see if anyone wants to come, it'll probably be in 2013 that i'll go but all the same it would be nice to have a companion of some kind...

We're young I know but don't forget that we will always be able to start our careers but we need to make sure we live in the process. I don't want to wake up one day and realized I didn't do half of what I wanted to do, especially while I was young. I am SO excited! My curiousity is overwhelming me and the more I know about anything and everything the more curious I become...

Right, now back to my final essay of the semester. This summer is going to be beyond productive! I am going to find a Pilates Training Studio, hopefully teach Dance, start learning Italian, and learn some kind of Martial Art....while also performing in NINE at City Lights Theater CO. Also, I plan on getting my tatoo in dedication of my Granny and Grandad who inspire me every single day and motivate me to be everything I can be.